i am feeling really free now, AND THAT FEELS WRONG. lets see...nothing due tmr or on tuesday, all my pts done. woooaah. basically this weekend has been really relaxing. i guess i need to charge up for the next few weeks. EOYs. ARGH. OH YES. slept at 130am for the past 2 nights too. to do what? WATCH GONG! hahahaha! and im in a GREAT DILEMMA now okay! i dont know which guy to like! i dont know which guy deserves chaegyung! SHIN OR YUL! ahhhh.

SHIN IS COOL. he's GAY. but HE'S BECOMING REALLY SWEET NOW. and he's a loner. that makes him really cool. YUL IS COOL. HE'S CHIO. HE HAS PRETTY EYES. AND HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN NICE TO CHAEGYUNG. HOW?! aiya. i know the best solution la. LIKE CHAEGYUNG INSTEAD. after all, its PRINCESS hours, so you should concentrate on the PRINCESS. WAHAH. oh sigh. but im stuck at ep 16 now! 17 and 18 are in chinese subs i dont like. and 19-24 i dont have =( yile's lending me on tuesday! that means i'll hafta wait 2 more days. waaahhhh.

oh yes and gong is gona be aired on channel u soon! yes yes yes! im gona watch again XD but it starts during the EOY period. RAH. okay dude enough of swooning over gong. GOOOOOOONGGGG!!!!! XDXDXDXDXD ...i said enough -.-

i was sharing something with someone just now. asking her for advice because im stuck in this great dilemma. and that person said something which...kind of made sense and helped me sought my thoughts out: is it very tiring? if it is just let go.

OKAY THAT WAS PURELY RANDOM =) song leading for jss today was BREATHTAKING. both figuratively and literally. sang "I'm inright upright outright downright" WITH ACTIONS SUMMORE. yes those who know this song can tell how breathtaking it is. then sang this really beautiful song "He can turn the tides" this is breathtaking figuratively coz its really meaningful and beautiful. but at the same time breathtaking literally. the notes go waayyy low then suddenly HIGH. woa.

anyway. last night in bed this song suddenly came into my mind.

and I Thank you, Lord,
for the trials that come my way.
In that way I can grow each day
as I let you lead,
And I thank you, Lord,
for the patience those trials bring.
In that process of growing,
I can learn to care.

But it goes against the way I am
to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

'Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting
can be easily ignored.


I thank you, Lord,
with each trial I feel inside,
that you're there to help,
lead and guide me away from wrong.
'Cause you promised, Lord,
that with every testing,
that your way of escaping is easier to bear.

But it goes against the way I am
to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

'Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting
can be easily ignored.


I thank you, Lord,
for the victory that growing brings.
In surrender of everything
life is so worth while.
And I thank you, Lord,
that when everything's put in place,
out in front I can see your face,
and it's there you belong.