happy chinese new year everyone =) it came and went just like a thief in the night. how fast.

was planning to blog about the new year in this post, but shall do it next time round.

was rather unhappy with my mom last night. firstly she didn't allow me to stayover tonight and said that it was ironic how we're leaders and yet we're getting so wild before such an important event. and no matter how true this may or may not be, i really felt quite unhappy that she just put down the board like that. i mean it kind of showed her lack of trust in us. anyway, eventually this afternoon she decided to allow me to stay and i was happy again. but then i just decided not to go again since its so late. heh.

and well, whenever ppl ask me how's my bowling, i just go "i havent been bowling for 3 weeks because i sprained my elbow". and so they'll ask the typical concerned "oh dear, so how?" and then my mom just chips in "no idea lor. may not even be able to bowl for competition" and well somehow to me i always felt that it was a form of sarcasm to rebuke me for being ill-disciplined. frankly i've been very stone-faced everytime im confronted with this situation. i don't know why. maybe its because i've been so busy this period that i don't even have time to sit down and think of the consequences of not being able to play.

but anyway, i somehow felt this had made my mom have some misconceptions that:
1) im not really concerned about my injury and im not worried that its not recovering.

2) my elbow should have already recovered and i can definitely bowl for bdiv, so adding in a couple of "may not even play for competition"s from her won't hurt.

and well the more i thought about it the more unhappy i felt. but i have no idea why this morning she was exceptionally nice to me. she woke me up and asked me about my arm. and i just told her the truth that it was still pain. then she said "don't bowl for bdiv also nevermind okay?"

and somehow when i heard it i felt really comforted. it was as if one simple sentence had made up for all the other misconceptions that she (or maybe i) had over the past few weeks.

ahh im ranting too much. today wasn't really that great either. zombi-ed all the way to class as usual and was totally sian for the first block which was english. randomly scribbled this during english:



haha somehow i find this method really effective! i mean the first part really lets you vent your anger and angst as much as you want. then once you're done and you're kinda chilling, then you try to comfort yourself and be OPTIMISTIC =D

yeap. frankly sometimes when i stare at my elbow and think of how it got injured, i get filled with such frustration that i really feel like bashing it up. and as audrey said, MAYBE THE ENORMOUS IMPACT ON A CERTAIN ANGLE OF THE ELBOW WILL RESULT IN ITS MIRACULOUS RECOVERY! hahahaha. im sure.

eh i've never done this before and this may sound very thick-skinned, but i sincerely beseech all of you to keep my elbow in your prayers. no wait this sounds wrong. i shall try again. i sincerely beseech all of you to keep MY ELBOW AND ME in your prayers =D thankyou!

ahh sli tmr. shall go sleep soon. i hope i dont oversleep man! i plan to be in school by 630. which means i hafta leave house by 615. hahaha sounds so ambitious. i usually only wake up at 630 =P